I remember since i was a child i used to catch baggers from the street and asked them to come to my home and mom used to smile at me and used to give something mostly food to them .Due to some family issues in mid-primary age i don’r remember i could continue this trend. at that time i used to feed cows half of my lunch , even today i don’t remember why i used to do that. but i used to do that . later on after 7th i was busy in athletics.. the day i lost a race at state level and could not qualify further due to politics i left athletics and in front of me there was OASIS. not sure if the ngo is still there but in oasis we planted thousands of trees.. traveled villages to teach people hygiene and  one thing i never used to like is work we used to do and on some fine day some minister used to come and used to cut the ribbon and all credit used to go to him. in Newspapers, magazines.. that was the time i learned importance of documentation, today also i push so many friends of mine in different fields to keep their records of even small work they do.
In all this process i did not realized i came far from my family, then the 10th and 12th. . i scored well in 10th and did bad in later one. but did not matter to me cause failure in your loved field counts failure .. failure in something you just did for sake of education system, foundation, family is failure in terms of time and money wasted, but if you look back life always had plans for you where it wanted you to go .. so next thing happened was pune..  i become more open, live and humorous there..

In my second year i found an AD . art of living workshop.. and the teacher was rhea pillai.. i had a huge crush on her so thought i should join. but the fees was like something i could not afford.. as football was taking half of my monthly budget.. that time also i remember i told akil that i want to do something for oldage people and orphan. he just laughed .

So the present scenario is i am part of aol.. through me atlest 200 or 300 people have done course.. most of them are out of touch.. whos fault.. mine..
few of them praises me like i have done miracle.. do i care about credit. no..
do i do it on continous bases now.. no
do i put the efforts and courage i used to do in OASIS .. some sort of..
what stops me.. my attitude.. my ego and my mind which says i have done enough..
So what i want to do now.. each and every moment and interactions in life passes on hidden message.. the ultimate destination for me is serving the people.. if i do now or may be after 10 years keeping a feeling i had a chance earlier..
now honestly i don’t wanna loose time , don’t want to think that i have done enough.. i have helped one and 100000000000 are left. how i could think i have done enough..  my master never said that.. and my stupid ego says so.. how idiotic it is.
so what i want to do now.. is open up myself.. do what i do best.. show my availability.. not to some but to all.. in real..

lets talk abut it after a week . . lets see how i have grown or fallen after understanding this..
wish a luck to myself.. need it.

I have been drawing airplanes almost on all notebooks anywhere i could find a space.. this was the common object of my drawing.. i always wanted to fly.. in as many different shapes as i can.. but i never thought until i discussed it with a friend that I never draw wings.. never portrayed myself.. i believe i have drawn millions of airplanes, rockets, spaceships till now but don’t remember if i have ever drawn a man flying.. not even superman with blue or while or red under ware wearing on his pants..

The thing is that most of the time i have observed everything what i can now.. all i did then and sometimes still now i do is ignore it.. i am sure about one thing.. i am not born dumb.. have better IQ and EQ then normal people just where i was failing was.. i filled stiffness .. bunch and bunch of stiffness in me.. i am observing it and removing it now..

The reason i have started writing is the one.. while writing each and every moment where i live and where i lack .. when i write it i re-live it and understand that mistakes i made and make sure in my mind i won’t repeat it.. for sure..

So stiffness was there and still there in my mind.. the solution i have come up with weirdness.. my mind always believe acting differently then the pattern it has created for itself can be so weird so i an doing it.. and my mind is enjoying also..

And i can write down thousands of examples of my stiffness but here i writing one..
I have a most beautiful girlfriend , on earth , not praising her cause she is my girlfriend but she has most beautiful mind , body and soul.. isn’t that a rare and great combination .
so we had a little argument and she told me until i make her feel good.. praise her she wont seat on my bike.. and can yo belive due to my stupid stupid stiffness i couldn’t utter a word. i had thousand ideas in mind.. but what my mind said.. no.. its not right thing to do.. so 15 minutes passed and i stood there like an idiot.. waiting her to smile and get back.. she did that but she told me one thing.. any guys passing by could not see me in bad mood and would have done anything to make my mood happy, you as my boyfriend just stood there.. don’t you think you are so stiff inside..
this is the first time i heard it..  then after thousand of times this happed in different ways.. can you believe she was so understanding and still is that each time she sees me being stiff she makes me look at it and tries to make me more flexible.
The great thing about her is that she does not remember all this.. she does not keep it in memory.. but i do.. cause i have to improve .. i have to prove my worth.. i have to make sure. she does not feel sad because of it ..ever..

and thats not for her.. that will make me super flexible and will surely end my stiffness..

P.S a super human from the brain can be super paralyzed..  but when you have both working fine.. use both in best of their coordination to live the life at its fullest..

a couple of days back this happend to me.. a friend was telling me that i am not putting my enough to serve the society and my ego was shouting from inside that i am doing enough..

what a wrong attitude..  i own a apology to her and i think instead of saying sorry if i make a little change in people around me that would be a better apology with action..

my issue is that the things i understand i don’t do..  i can easily count ten people who needs a help to move on in their life.. all i need to do is reach them..

i know .. i know.. i will.. this is what my mind tells me..

I am not putting a guild on myself or condemning my self.. just putting my own example i am saying that this can happen to each and everyone to us.. may be i am lucky enough to have a friend who looks inside me and takes responsibility of me.. more then what i do for myself..

so the day you understand it.. start doing it..  today,  i talked to 5 people regarding what is art of living.. not the organization.. but the path.. the way of living.. it could happen only when i stopped to them and then they popped up a question.. you look lot changed.. that means people could sense the change.

and what i learned today .. is i have to change. so people can see it , sense it.. than less words would do more work for me.. for sure..  the whole world is waiting . and time is less.  lets see to it that i can reach as far as i can..
hope once you read it you will also get along..

I could write this all cause… i found that i been not living up to the mark.. now if you ask what is that?
not living up to the demand of the moment.

My past week experience says.. i met up with this gal whos x-boyfriend is trying to get back by making all possible positive or negative efforts.. by proving it to her that he has done more then she could deserved so she had to get back to him.. how stupid is it..  why always after these incidences i had to go back on thinking that why you forget essence of freedom in relationship.. the freedom of choice.. what she wants and what she does not. which is beyond words and reflects in action..

we will need to start understanding our girlfriends are different then our bikes..  they are not an object.. but if you loose them you surely will become life less object.

look the nature has had sensible thought to make both species.. male and female.. instead of indulging in our super wrong superiority complex. we need to learn bowing down to emotions , knowledge and freedom.

i believe even if you are not able to convince your girlfriend to marry you, at least make her feel that you are there for her for real, you will make thousand more mistakes in relationships , you will learn from it, you will make her angry, she will make thousand decisions to leave you .. write you off from her life.. but you will there for her always.. cause what you have started off with is promise to be there. promise to live a life for her..

My experience says.. the day you get the one who can uplift you , be there for you, care for you.. or just make you feel that you can share whatever , whenever in your own way to them you will not care what tag you give to your relationships.. if its stays an affair, reaches to wedding mandap , or stays as beautiful friendship,

The day you forget the beautiful life you have or had.. your friendship ends that day only.   the best memories you have why you wanna get rid of it by pushing someone to be with you when they don’t want to.. just wait.. if you are worthy enough.. they will come back. or i will say your worth will be proved..

so stop thinking about live-in relationships.. start living in relationship first.

If you ask me how my journey here has been so far I would say..
There not more scope but there are enthusiastic favorable people who loves art, according to me and it is globally known that people over here are the best audience. But there is not much commercial aspects as an artist you get, that is why most of the artists from this city goes out to work.

As an aspiring artist what is see is at present appreciation and money are both essential, the later part is hard to earn in this city, a keen work is not much appreciated if you are an aspiring artist but if you go out and become pro. You are highly appreciated and even people will call you back but keen work is not served on regular bases. People now a days lost a taste for keen music, the reason is they don’t pay for quality work. The money factor is a motivational factor,money and work satisfaction goes together, and if one lacks in some part artists would not prefer those places to go often to perform.

My opinion on the city’s growth and culture is that you will find people adopting better fashion, most niche living patterns in some parts of baroda, you will observe the MSU which is the best uni. People staying in different parts of city who has got equal education has a vast living standard , most of the people adopt a strategy where they take education and move ahead, so highly or I would say well educated people does not take responsibility of this city, so people grows but city stays there only.

There are ample of opportunities seen for beginners but in real I would say for aspiring artists the opportunities  are none. Because the opportunities which are provided is gujrati sugam sangeet and gujrati cinema, the content is so rich but people associated are not that keen and full of richness so the opportunity is provided are not the one helps artists grow, the culture is that people don’t pay so biggest artists does not come to city cause the willingness to appreciate the art but not willing to provide the resources for it to grow.

I have seen many biggest artist does not prefer baroda apart from baroda dayfestival , people will need to understand that they have to look beyond free passes, they have to look beyond sponsored events so artists will look forward to come to city, so if this trend goes on the city will be a drained place in terms of art, cause if motivation is not there which artist would prefer to visit this amazing city.

Each and every moment in my life where I am happy and all those moments when I am sad ,  both these moments are my own responsibility, living with this attitude, awareness is according to me art of living,

Why do you think a youngster needs to be spiritual or what is the need of spirituality in one’s life?

Because the youngest person in the world if is not spiritual are considered old, so if the people who are called youngsters and lacks spirituality in their life are just youngsters by a tag but not as real,  spirituality is the only path where you can overcome all the complexity of life at most ease. The world runs on that sprit, the whole world is made of one energy , to live life with this awareness that is spirituality and each youngster should live this life based on this point of view.

Tell us more about KYC?

It is very obvious that kids are not able to understand our world and its interactions,we have to understand and accept that its also difficult for us to understand their world , and that is also obvious and we are into dilemma that we understand their world, we will need to come out of it , and we take it for granted that we understand them. But there are a lot of interactions kids do which are beyond our understanding and   more creative then we can imagine, This workshop is to explore all these secrets . Which narrows the emotional and mental gaps between kids and parents, which is most essential.

Why would you recommend it to parents?

If you see closely parents who take care of utter most social and economical responsibilities, sometimes misses out on taking care of minor but important things for their children which leaves impression on their children and becomes part of their children . For example. Giving not just your time but quality time to your children matters most to them.  Because in each and every moment of life, education is so much important, the education is not limited to graduation or post-graduation, but at each and every moment of life we are learning something. Due to generation gap between parents and kids , either parents or children suffers,  it is not good for social development. As we send children to schools and classes  to get education , its also essential for parents  to get educated to understand their children, For that this workshop provides an opportunity.

Do you have any message for today’s youth who has lost their motive of living life?

when something is lost it means at some point it was there before with us. But when you talk about aspect and behavior which is immaterial which never was lost, it was just hidden under a bunch of layers of time and situations. This happens with everyone not only with youngsters. So my message is the motive never lost. all you need to do is clean up the layers and you will see the very natural yourself lying there , so uplift it.

Do you have any message for new age parents?

In our Indian culture people are intend to make their tasks according to their age span. So for example if a parent crosses age of 55 he has that approach that all their children should be married because they want to feel mental freedom from social responsibilities arises around them. When they are doing this the couple who are getting married are matured physically to get married but are not looked up or checked that are they matured enough mentally to take responsibility of their own ? their new partner in their life
and the whole family they will generate later on? So if lack is there in this
age span of this young couple the later generations generated through them will
carry forward this lack and they may live suffocated life. so parents who are taking care of all requirements of their children at each age span , here they have to change the approach ,the same strategy does not apply here at this point of life . Because getting married and starting new life is all about being mentally matured and compatible for each other not just keeping basic necessities as a human in mind. And to adopt this reality , if
your children are missing out on it , parents should make them understand it and if parents are missing out on this its responsibility of children to make
them  understand.